...since I last posted! That's not good. But to be honest, my progress hasn't been that fantastic either. Having just updated my stats on here, it has just dawned on me that I have lost only 4lbs over the past month. But at least it is a loss i suppose. Despite reaching my 10% goal last month, I have become quite disheartened. The first fortnight seemed to go really well though, as I was doing as many aqua aerobic classes as I could possibly get to, and even tried out a spinning class (or rpm studio cycling, as it's known around here).
The spinning class was brilliant, but really tough, but I was surprised at how much I could do. Although, I think for my first class I went a bit overboard, because when we were stretching out at the end of the class I started feeling really sick and woozy, and started seeing spots infront of my eyes! There were a few moments when I was convinced that I was going to have to vomit infront of the whole class, but managed to calm myself down and prevent that happening. When I got outside I had to sit down on a kerb with my head in my hands for a good half hour before the sicky feeling went away - I dreaded the thought of being sick in my car!! Anyway, I know that going to spinning that week definitely helped my weight loss efforts, as I lost 2.5lbs that week! So I am going to give it a go again tomorrow morning! I will post on here about it, if I survive!!
The spinning class was brilliant, but really tough, but I was surprised at how much I could do. Although, I think for my first class I went a bit overboard, because when we were stretching out at the end of the class I started feeling really sick and woozy, and started seeing spots infront of my eyes! There were a few moments when I was convinced that I was going to have to vomit infront of the whole class, but managed to calm myself down and prevent that happening. When I got outside I had to sit down on a kerb with my head in my hands for a good half hour before the sicky feeling went away - I dreaded the thought of being sick in my car!! Anyway, I know that going to spinning that week definitely helped my weight loss efforts, as I lost 2.5lbs that week! So I am going to give it a go again tomorrow morning! I will post on here about it, if I survive!!
The other thing which has happened recently (and may have contributed to my general mood) is that I have received a wedding invitation from someone who I have issues with. Well, to be completely truthful I despise the woman! Which is rather a shame, because the guy she is marrying is lovely! He is a friend of my OH and I have known him for as long as I have been with my OH, which is nearly 5 years. She only came on the scene a couple of years ago, and initially I quite liked her. Since then, she has really shown her true colours; she has proved to be a totally superficial, money grabbing idiot with a superiority complex, the likes of which I have experienced before!! She has very little tact when attempting to assert herself, and as a result she has upset most of our circle of friends, including me! One of our other friends (male, the best man in fact!) has the theory that she is just really dumb, so much so that she doesn't realise what she is saying half the time. I don't know if I believe that. What's even more shocking is that I have also been invited to her 3-part Hen Party! She really must have no friends! Either that or she actually thinks I like her!
But anyway, she isn't exactly slim herself, probably around a 16/18, and apparently has no intention of slimming for the wedding, so when I found out last xmas that they were getting married, I had decided that I wanted to lose as much weight as I could before the wedding to "show" her. Pathetic really. The worst bit is, the wedding is in mid October this year, which leaves very little time left to lose a large amount of weight now, particularly at the rate I am going at the moment! It is really getting me down..
So much so, that during the middle of this week I ended up bingeing quite badly, and got to a real low point where I had locked myself in the bathroom, intending to be sick. I realised by doing that, I would have crossed the line into bullemic territory, so I didn't do it. I wasn't going to go to WI either, as I was so ashamed and disgusted with myself, but somehow I dragged my sorry @rse there, ready to face the consequences, to find that I had lost 1.5lbs!! However, I really felt like I didn't deserve it, and I know that unless I get back on track and exercise like a demon this week, at next WI I will most likely be facing a gain.
So I have slowly but surely been climing back on the wagon and I have started planning my week. Part of that will involve posting on here every day, and although I'm sure no-one ever reads it, I hope it will help me to stay on track!!
Here's to a better week this week!!
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